has different ways to feel alive. Because in truth it is an
illusion, so in order for a person to feel his separateness and
as the only being, it needs to constantly have different ways to
prove it exists.
<2>So it is not wrong to say that even creating
problems is a way the ego can feel it survives, because if there is
a problem which is related to it, so it surely exists!
<3>Also in this category is to create excitement
and constant stimulation so with it a feeling of existing is
created. Usually the person says that because of these stimulations,
he feels good. <4>In truth what he is saying is, "'I' as a
separate ego feel alive."
<5>One way for the ego to feel this existence is
to choose the way of masochism or sadism. <6>By becoming an
object of torture and misuse, a person feels he exists and derives
from the person who misuses him or her. Also the person who misuses
others, thinks he is powerful, so his ego derives satisfaction.
<7>However, the dilemma is that the one who
assumes the role of the torturer (sadist) assumes this position
because of his inadequacies, and by taking on this role he feels
god. But because of his feeling of separation, after the
act of excitement is finished, again he falls into his agony of
feeling nonexistent, inadequate, and separate. So he has to
repeat the act more often and more brutally. Therefore after some
time he becomes completely separated and lost.
<8>Also the masochist who becomes the object of
the torture feels the other person has misused him. Although he
continues his relationship with this other person, because that is
the only way he derives his satisfaction, he creates resentment and
looks down upon his torturer.
<9>The sadistic person who tortures to be
glorified not only does not achieve his objective but even will
degenerate. Also he loses his power to the person he misuses. So
this again adds to decline and this cycle goes on and on until both
of them go to the depth of their hellish situation.
<10>Ego at the same time is not. Those who
realize this do not strive to prove they exist by creating problems
or deriving satisfaction from the outside world. It is then that
such a person becomes one and a part of the universe.
<11>Then not only does he cease to create problems but
actually will start to solve some true ones (ninety-nine percent of
the problems in the world have been created by the
false ego and are not
<12>Those who are masochistic activate the
sadistic part of the sadist, then derive power from it. So the
sadist loses power (prana),
and the masochist lives on this
<13>Besides the consciousness, there are
three gunas which
exist in the universe.
Satva guna is
female. It is
passive and positive.
Raja guna (life-force)
female principle. It is
active and neutral. It activates and brings all into life.
is also neither male nor
female. It is passive
and negative. Consciousness is passive and neutral.
(energy) is the only
active force in the universe. When it is in the passive state the
universe will be un-manifested. Universe (God)
will be in the state of
which is formless, nameless, invisible, eternal, neither
nor female. <15>This
is the seventh state of consciousness.
<16>When the same consciousness becomes
activated, but still is in pure form (Pure
Consciousness), it will become engaged in planning and guiding
the universe. In this state it becomes pure Divine Logic (Father).
<17>Logic is male
or principle. This is the sixth state of consciousness.
in the active state, however, receives the polarity of positivity
when directed toward higher things (satva); will be neutral when
pure raja; and negative when directed toward mundanity (tama).
satva guna is
activated (by raja guna
Grace) and it dominates
the consciousness (Logic or
male principle), in this state
God. <20>It is the
fifth state of consciousness. It is in this state that The
Holy Ghost (Bliss)
is experienced which is full of
(female principle) and
is Grace, when it
dominates the consciousness and is directed to higher things.
Because it has no polarity, it becomes the unconditional Love (Mother,
no polarity or condition) or The Divine
<22>This is experienced in the fourth level of consciousness
is bondage. When it is activated by
energy (raja guna)
and dominates active
satva guna and the
consciousness, then the Logic becomes earthly. It is then that a
person becomes man (earthly). <24>This is the third state of
<25>In the state where tama dominates the active
raja and consciousness, then The
becomes passion and temptation. A person then will become
woman. This state is what is referred to as
woman in the Bible.
<26>This is the second state of consciousness.
<27>In the first level of consciousness,
tama guna dominates
with complete force. The consciousness (kundalini) is dormant.
<28>By meditating and creating greater
guna) in the body, the grip of the
tama guna will be
loosened and the consciousness will be brought to higher levels.
<29>This is called the awakening of the spiritual forces
<30>As long as the consciousness is latent in
the first level (chakra)
a person will be bound by his physiological and safety needs. His
will be used toward maintenance of his physical body and worldly
activities. He also will receive most of his
energy by consuming food.
<31>In this state man is a rational animal and has no Divine
consciousness. He identifies himself only as being the body.
<32>Although the physical body of the human as
has some relationship with manifestation of Logic or
Grace, it is not
absolute. Each of these qualities can be developed by practice in
either sex and also there are exceptions.
<33>Whoever opens his heart
chakra) will manifest
unconditional Love or
Mother) and he who reaches the sixth level is one with the
Father (pure Logic controlling the emotions -- first five
<34>In the explanation above the most important
thing is the dual nature of
raja guna (female
energy). It either can
be directed to positivity as Divine
Mother, or toward
negativity as the
lower nature of
man. <35>These two sides of the same phenomena (energy)
have been mythically symbolized in Hindu religions as the two
consorts of their
gods such as Krishna and Shiva. Usually one of them is the
symbol of the
of transmutation and destruction, such as Kali and Durga, and the
other as one full of
Grace, Shakti, and Radah.
<36>These two consorts actually are the two sides of each
person or the mythical
<37>This part of
energy is symbolized as
woman in the Bible,
the same meaning implied by the
goddess Kali, who is shown as an old dark-skinned woman who has
a necklace of skulls around her neck and is dreadful.
<38>The same phenomena (raja
guna) when directed toward higher things, becomes The Divine
Grace or The