Maitreya: You never know with God, how it's
going to turn out. You have to love Him and trust that it's going to
work out fine. You're going to get your purified desires but don't
be impatient.
Guest: I don't even think I know what my desires
are. Except I think I know that one of my true desires is to go to
the Father, to be One with the Father. I know I have a lot of minor
desires.
Maitreya: Like what?
Guest: Like my desire for a relationship, for
marriage or what- ever. I know that's a very strong one. In fact I
don't know if I've been going about it the right way but I had been
trying to work on the attachment to that desire after I left here
last time, because when I was here in the winter, I realized how
strong that had become. I realized that it was an attachment that
could get in my way, and that I needed to work on it.
Maitreya: When you come close to God, whatever
impurities and desires you have become much more magnified. It's
just like a pond, as long as you don't stir it, it doesn't look that
dirty. The sediment and the dirt are accumulating down at the bottom
of the pond, and you don't even know they exist. Now stir that water
and see what happens.
You will see that dirt underneath will come out. You
will say, "I didn't even know that so much dirt existed in this
pond. I thought this pond was so clear and clean. I've been working
to clean up this pond for a long time. What are these junks coming
up?"
That is why the moment you turn toward God you see
you are bound more with dirt, junk and creatures in you. That is why
it's a good time to clear them up, because when you stir them up and
they come out then you can skim them off, take them out of the
water, and make the water clean. So it's not very surprising that
when you came here you saw your desires much more magnified, and you
could clearly face them.
That's another thing we do here. In the
Communities of Light you have to face yourself because there are
so many light beings living here, and everyone is working on one
another. It's just like a play. It's something that you cannot
escape from, being in a very intense environment, and that
intensity, psychologically, physically and spiritually, is
purifying.
It's not a community based on the self-centeredness
that, "I have my little house, I have my wife and child and that's
it. I don't care what my neighbor does." That is not a Community
of Light. Even a married couple living in one house with their
children have problems, and that is intense. But now expand that to
a community where every-one has to relate to one another, love one
another, and bring God and light into it.
People who are attracted to such communities have a
lot of light in them. They are very high beings that even desire to
live in such an environment. Still, when they come to this kind of
environment they see, "Oh look, I still have so many things to go
through." And that is good.
You shouldn't be discouraged because you have so
much to go through, but indeed you have to be very happy because it
is the environment in which "I" can eventually face these creatures.
If I have to go through something, it means it is something I have
to go through. So the sooner you go through it, the sooner you're
going to get over this, and you will be free sooner to do whatever
you are here to do and have been called to do. So the Community
of Light is an intense environment.
For instance, there is a Guru in India who used to
have Intensive Courses. What they did was create very intense
environments where the people had to confront one another and
themselves. But I say, "Why do you need an Intensive Class? Life
itself is intense. It's a class. You don't need to create an
Intensive Class to allow people to face themselves." Now in the
Communities of Light that life becomes probably 100 times more
intensified.
Question: This is like one of those intense
classes but you're living it in your real life?
Maitreya: That's right. It's even more intense
than those classes because those classes just lasted for a couple of
days. But the intensity in the
Communities of Light is constant. You constantly have to face
yourself, to examine yourself, to realize and pick up different
energies. It's easy just to close your house and live in a house by
yourself. to live in a close environment (only your own house or
alone) is kind of an inverted environment, you fall back to
yourself. And when you fall back to yourself you create a lot of
fears from outside. It becomes like a trap for you. That's why there
is a lot of fear in many people. In the environment where people
only care about their own house, or their own family, they cut
themselves off from the rest of society, and actually crime thrives
because no one cares about the neighbor or the other person.
They even become more fearful as the crimes become
more intense. They lock themselves in more, and the fears are
intensified. They care even less for the outside. The outside
becomes worse. They fall back and the cycle goes on and on.
But if they open themselves up and create the
Communities of Light, crime is going to go away. It has no
choice, because darkness can only exist when there is no light. When
the light comes can the darkness exist? No. You go into a dark room
and flip on the switch. The light comes on and the darkness is gone.
So darkness is not really powerful. It's very
powerless. Darkness is powerful to a lot of people because they
don't know Light. The moment you know Light the darkness is gone.
You wonder, what happened to it? What happened to all my desires,
fears, attachments, etc? They are not there any longer. They just
vanish. Darkness is not really something that you have to fight
with. The only thing you have to fight for is to bring your focus
back to God all the time. The more you are in focus with God, the
farther away the darkness will be.
Question: So even when I feel those attachments,
desires and fears, and then just let them go, I then immediately try
to remember to bring my focus back to God? Like maybe saying, Thank
you Father for touching me, realize that God is touching me. Because
I've been doing some of that.
Maitreya: Right. I used to give Satsang even
before I started the Mission about what I called creatures.
These creatures run people's lives, and have control of their lives.
They can be called principalities.
Actually that is our sub-conscious mind. It's
programmed after many lifetimes and this life. So as I said, we act
in different situations in a certain way because we have been
programmed to react that way. And also it was imposed on us to have
a special kind of lifestyle.
Society has imposed on us, that because you are a
woman you have to do this and this. You have to marry, have a child
and so on. Or you are a man, you have to go through this, get a job,
get married and so on. So some of our desires are really not ours,
they're society's desires which are things we think we should be
doing. If we're not doing them we are worthless, we are not
accepted. This is again a kind of longing for human attention, for
human acceptance, because we want to be accepted by society. We want
to be respected by our elders and our family, etc. And we sometimes
feel that if we don't do those things the way they want us to do
them, they are not going to respect us, they are not going to love
us, and they are going to reject us.
Actually, we reject ourselves first because we have
set up a goal and a certain way that things should happen to us.
Then when they don't happen the way we want, we start feeling
worthless, and we start rejecting ourselves. When we reject
ourselves we feel that they have rejected us. But in truth no one is
worthless because we are all created in the image of God. How can
anyone be worthless? How can anyone be a failure? How can anyone not
be what God wants them to be? Sometimes we are not supposed to be
married, we are not supposed to have children, we are not supposed
to be educated, we are not supposed to have a lot of money.
All those things are what many people desire. Some
people are not going to be happy even after they've obtained them.
Someone works and makes a lot of money. He buys a big house. He buys
a car and a lot of things.
No one likes a person who is a show off, who has a
lot of money and is trying to show it off to everyone, "Oh I have
this mansion and expensive car," etc. The people who really pay
attention to them don't pay attention to them for themselves but for
their money. And they know it. In their very essence they know that
this attention is not real. In their essence they really are lonely
for real love, for real attention. All that money didn't buy what
they were longing for.
Some people want to be married and have a wife or a
husband. They think, "If I get married, that's it, I'll be happy."
They get married. They won't be happy, because you never can find
happiness in another person. If I am looking for happiness and love,
and my part-ner also is looking for happiness and love, neither of
us have it. We both are looking for the same thing. If you are
looking for something, that means you don't have it, you need it.
Just like (I put it always in a monetary sense because it's much
easier for people to relate to), if I don't have money and you don't
have money, how can we help each other monetarily? Neither of us
have money. So I can't give you any money, neither can you give me
any.
If you don't have love, if you don't have happiness,
and if I don't have love and I don't have happiness, we both are
seeking for the same thing. Then I want you to give me love and
happiness, and you want me to give you love and happiness. But you
don't have it and I don't have it. So I can't give it to you, and
you can't give it to me. Then what happens? You marry and you see
this person doesn't have it either. You become unhappy, you become
despondent. You become agitated about the whole life, and you start
blaming your partner. And your partner starts blaming you, because
you don't want to see the faults in yourself. No one wants to see
fault in oneself. If you don't meditate, you don't really want to
know yourself.
Most of the people are always looking for someone or
somewhere to blame for their problems, because they don't want to
see what is in themselves. But if you know God, you connect with Him
and you have the Love and Happiness and Fulfillment from God, then
you have it. Everyone is looking for what you have, and everyone
will come to you. Then you can give it to them and fill them up.
When they are filled up, they can give it to other people. Then they
can fill them up. It's just like warm fuzzies, the more you give,
the more there will be. So you become full of this beautiful Love of
God which goes through you all the time.
Then you realize, that is what I was looking for all
my life. I wasn't looking for a relationship. I wasn't looking for a
man, or a woman, or a child, or money, or anything. I was looking
for this Love. That's when you find the partner you want, you need
and you're looking for. You suddenly see everything is happening for
you. Before this happens you were looking for it in the wrong
places. Focus on God, the rest will be provided, if it is His Will.
Then you know, that's good. That's good.
Question: How come I felt that I already knew
that but just hearing you say it made such a difference? The Father
coming through?
Maitreya: That is what Satsang is. Actually it
is said, you meet your teacher when he says things that you already
knew.
Question: You meet your teacher when he says
things that you already knew? Why is that? That's not hitting me.
Maitreya: You just said it yourself. That you
already knew everything I just said. But when I say it, it becomes
clearer for you.
Guest: Clarity. OK.
Maitreya: Because I'm not just saying it, I'm
touching your Soul with it. I'm stirring it up for you. I'm bringing
it more into focus for you. That is what Satsang is. That's why
Satsang is so powerful and that's why it is given.
Guest: Thank you. Thank you Father. I was saying
before that I was having all these thoughts and it really bothered
me because I was having some thoughts, a lot that had to do with
you. And it just bothered me because here is this person that I know
I'm supposed to respect and love.
Maitreya: You're not supposed to do anything.
Guest: I think I'm supposed to.
Maitreya: You're not supposed to, you know. You
do it because you want to. You desire to.
Guest: Yes, yes. And yet I was having all these
thoughts toward you coming up that I didn't like and everything. And
I was saying, here's this holy person, and then remembering that
when I was younger I always had this animosity towards people who
were supposed to be holier than thou. That helped a lot when that
came to the surface because a lot of those people would say and not
do, "You should be like this" and so forth and yet not do it.
Maitreya: Well, sometimes it's much easier to
say than to do it. You have to have compassion even for those who
say and don't do because really what they say is the desire of their
Soul, what they want to be. To want to be what they say and yet not
be what they say is what they're going to blame themselves for even
harsher than you blame them, for the failure they are. So in a sense
to be a complete master who says and does also, is very rare.
Guest: It feels so good. Some of them little
demons left!
Maitreya: Do you have a lot of demons?
Guest: It felt like I did. I'm sure there are
some more. And if I'm sure of it that means there are, right?
Maitreya: Everyone has them. What kind of
thoughts did you have about me?
Guest: Sexual thoughts. And I did what you said.
In my meditation or before I was going to sleep at night, I lived it
out and saw the emptiness of it. I saw the only reason I was having
the sexual feelings towards you was because what I was really
looking for was what you would be able to transmit to me.
Maitreya: Yes. It is very natural for the people
to have sexual thoughts about me. It is not unnatural because that's
the only way they know how to express their love, especially women.
But they really love me with their Soul. And eventually they
transform that energy to the Soul level.
Guest: As we bring it up?
Maitreya: Exactly. Eventually you really want to
love me in that level, not with sexual energy but in the highest
level of God energy. And when you love me that way, then you will be
in the ecstasy of the Love of God. That ecstasy is even greater than
any sexual experience that anyone ever had.
Guest: I know because in one of my relationships
I got to see some of the emptiness of sex. Well, I know I saw it
before that too, but that really was what made me decide to stop.
Until I get married, I will not have sex with anyone.
Maitreya: Very beautiful. We have to find men
and women who are clear about this, very clear. The more they become
disciplined to keep themselves for marriage, the more they can
transmit the energy to the higher thoughts. When they marry, they
marry with a good reason, because they marry for God, not for just a
sexual relationship or something else.
Because they never had any sexual relationship
before marriage, that is not the greatest part of their
relationship. Their real attraction becomes more and more for what
God wants them to be, to be a cou-ple, to create children, to become
a base of society, to bring God into their family, to make their
family environment a beautiful place for other people to come and
see what a relationship based on God does. And the two people are
one in God. It's not that kind of a marriage where, "OK, if I
divorce you now I can get half of the house."
Guest: Very temporary.
Maitreya: And very crude, very low level
consciousness. I'm glad that you have decided that. It is a very
beautiful decision. And don't worry about those thoughts. They are
there. You can sometimes do nothing about them. The only thing is,
realize that they are not from the Highest and just let them go.
Eventually they will vanish. And one day you will see, we are
already One.
Actually the whole universe is a sexual organ, in a
sense, because it creates, recreates, procreates, etc. In a sense,
sex is a very spiritual energy. It is a very powerful energy. Even
when the couple marry, they have to concentrate all the time that
all their relationship, including sex, is really God. Then God is
the Enjoyer, it's not them. Even that has to be transformed more and
more toward God relationship. Eventually the physical relationship
becomes very, very unimportant. Your love for each other becomes
very strong, and you become One. Then, even if the physical
relationship wasn't there, it wouldn't mat-ter, because you love one
another for some higher reasons. So nothing is bad. Whatever God
created in this universe is good (God), but it is from three kinds
(ignorance, passion or knowledge).
About the topic of sexual thoughts, there is a story
about Krishna (the Hindu god). The story is that Krishna (Christ)
was so beautiful that all the girls around where he lived were in
Love with him. They talked about nothing but Krishna. They ate,
slept, walked, and smelled with the thought of Krishna.
So every night they all would go to the river bank,
15,000 of them. There Krishna would join them and would multiply
Himself. Each girl would have a Krishna to herself, and they all
would dance and make Love the whole night.
See the story says they would make Love the whole
night. This Love-making is not referring to regular physical
love-making, but spiritual ecstasy.
Krishna, as God, is present in each of us. He has
already multiplied Himself so each of us can have a Krishna with His
enticing flute. When we find this Krishna, then we can direct our
longing for external attention or love to internal ecstasy and Joy
(Ananda). Then the sexual desires for our teacher becomes our
intense Love (Devotion) for him and God.
Still it might have the appearance of sexual longing
or desires but it is much higher. It is like falling in Love every
moment in our lives. When the thought of sexual relationship
vanishes in this process, the pure Love remains. That is the
creative power in you. It is strong and powerful. That is the Love
which can move mountains. That is when you Love God with all your
Heart, Mind and Being.
The climax of such a Love is the moment of complete
unity with God...!
